Giving Myself Away

In background - "Do what I have to"

Remember Emily?

"That's a long time" (2x)

In a long dress one summer day she said yes

Now every special request requires another

So many times it feels endless, a big yes

Branded red on each breast

But she selfless out there

Doing her best strangest thing

Nobody seemed to be impressed.

The more she do for this fool

The more she behind schedule

Had no fun for so long

Old records turned her onto High School flings

And she was full of daring

Colourful hair, used to wear thirteen rings

Now she staring drudgery

Full in the face and accepts it as her place

And just in case there's anything she missed,

She recheck the list

Does it over again,

To make sure it's spotless.

Jimmy longed for how it used to be,

She was viscous and volatile

She was feisty, iced tea was the tipple never asked nicely,

Her lips used to curl down ever so slightly, impolite,

Fire burned bright behind the Oakleys,

He just had to get to grips.

After a few long sips juice begin to lose flavour,

She no longer gets to savour being consumed.

Jimmy asleep drunk in the other room still in his shoes

Escaping headlong into the booze,

The whole house vibrating with the changes of moods.

From feisty she turned into "be nice to me"

In the old days he'd 've been wearing Ice T,

Jimmy prayed those times times returned,

She was fine and so beautifully unconcerned.

Jimmy told her, on the day he quit

"You don't love me you love the relationship"

Me?

I'm the progeny product of Misogeny,

Jimmy and Emily's homogeny

They promised me nothing but honesty,huh,

And that's all I got,

I could never be the cement in their destiny,

They still haven't forgiven me,

You know my own woman's leaving me

Said she stopped believing me,

Can't even see what she saw in me,

I told my woman she was beautiful,

She didn't believe,

Convinced herself I was preparing to leave,

so she took my son and left the world to freeze.

I told my woman she was beautiful Ten Times a Day,

Ten Times a Day she'd Smile, and look away.

I end up throwing my love down a bottomless pit.

And giving myself away...