Turn Back

I’ve been living this daily

With no peace

No day dreams to save me

Get high cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I’ve been living this daily

With no peace

No day dreams to save me

Get high cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

Born May, 1985

Ten months later my little bro arrived

Raised in a place where is due to survive

My Mummy shot food to put honey in our hive

I could see the hunger in her eyes

I could see that suttem wasn’t right

She taught me how to wrap and shot my first ticket

She told me watch my back and be smart with it

And I wish that I could take you there

To a place that my brain takes me every day

I could smile but it still won’t take the pain away

I could try

But remain in this lonely place

From a child I been raised in this soldier way

Mummy didn’t ramp she called us the Kray’s

No joke she showed us the ways

I’ve been living this daily

With no peace

No day dreams to save me

Get high cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I’ve been living this daily

With no peace

No day dreams to save me

Get high cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

Mummy couldn’t cope so she turned to drugs

My auntie Tina gave us hope

She was there for us

I was raised on the roads where its rare to trust

And my hearts been broke now I’m scared to love

And I might seem closed till I open up

Feel the weight of the struggle I been holding up

Been betrayed by a cuddle and a heartless hug

I drink pain from a bottle till my heart feels numb

Cause I came from the bottom of this bottle of rum

Ain’t changed from a youngen

I been stuck in the slums

Grey days up in London

Ain’t no summer for us

They tryin to take A

They want my brother in cuffs

And I just came home

This ain’t nothing to us

Like the court don’t know how our sufferer does

This poor home grown

But mums love was enough

So I want to give her more then she has given to us

I’ve been living this daily

With no peace

No day dreams to save me

Get high cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I’ve been living this daily

With no peace

No day dreams to save me

Get high cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I don’t want to feel this

I don’t want to see this

I don’t want to hurt no more

I don’t want to be this

I don’t want to feel this

I don’t want to see this

Be somebody

Need to get on up, need to get on up now

I’ve been living this daily

With no peace

No day dreams to save me

Get high cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time

I’ve been living this daily

With no peace

No day dreams to save me

Get high cause I want to survive

Wish I could turn back the hands of time