Painful Skies

Look

I know what I did

And I'm not sitting here blaming anyone else

I'm not feeling sorry for myself either

Yo

I listen to this beat it makes me think of what I've been through

All of the mistakes and stupid shit that I got into

All the fuckin' fakeness of people that I made friends with

So 98 percent of those friendships, I had to end it

I'm to old to be worried and keep pretending

And I apologize to some of the people deeply offended

But I can't live in the past, that shit just wears me down

That shit just tears me up inside and fucking tears me down

I'm not the man I was then, but I am not running

And I am not yet the man that I am still becoming

I'm getting stronger everyday and I can fucking feel it

And all the problems of my past one day I'm gonna deal with

Thanks for your patience I apologize for each occurrence

And I just hope that you can take this as some reassurance

My life is good. each day is better than the next day

But I have not forgotten won't settle till every debts payed

Time changes

Each man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Each life's a book with blank pages

Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous

Time changes

Every man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it

Listen to your hearts. We're protected by angels

Look

Let me make this clear I don't regret my whole past

Can't believe how time flies, shit has gone by so fast

You let me in your secret world and that was quite an honor

And I admit that that's a life I thought I might have wanted

Probably of pursued If I hadn't gotten caught up

But flags they started raising with these kids all gettin' shot up

And I became addicted to a drug that almost took my life

Lookin' back that might of been the only thing that saved my life

I'm full of love now, I'm Happy. I don't harbor hatred

Pretty sure that's how God wants us and to me that's sacred

I'm not sitting here judging and calling ya'll some vagrants

And I'm not pointing fingers questioning your occupations

I'm just hoping that the way I feel can shine some light

I know you got a good heart dawg. It's time to stop the fight

And let yourself become the man that your supposed to be

I still believe in you. No matter what, you're always close to me

Time changes

Each man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Each life's a book with blank pages

Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous

Time changes

Every man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it

Listen to your hearts. We're protected by angels

And I know becoming friends again ain't possible, at least for years

And fucking up for me is still a problem that I deeply fear

Only got a couple close friends now. That's how I like it

And I think I'm actually gonna make it, but I'm not a psychic

One of them's a brother proud to say that he's my best friend

Come on man! you got some fucking brothers, let this shit end

It's sad to me to see that greed is still The Devil's weapon

I tried my best to walk away from shit and kept steppin'

Brothers doin' good, his heart is filled with love

And we gon keep on building with these people that believe in us

Remember there was four of us till death do us part

Now there's only two of us the rest grew apart

It doesn't mean I don't think about you too, every week

And even if we never speak there's still a bond I'll never leave

I hope your happy and your family is doin' awesome

And hope that your still following the progress of the little monster

You had a hand and that helped and saved my life, I won't forget

Let's live the next half with no regrets, cause it ain't over yet

Time changes

Each man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Each life's a book with blank pages

Last ten years it's a chapter that's outrageous

Time changes

Every man ages

And sometimes best friends become strangers

Tears, anger and laughter we can't change it

Listen to your hearts. We're protected by angels