Repentance

If I die tonight couldn't be nothin but transparent

apparently you care for me like a parent

I swear it's the coldest winter ever upon my shoulders

Days are long; my nights are even longer

The weight so heavy on my back I can't move

Could somebody help me where do I turn to?

Since I was a youngin I been gunnin

it all alone ain't asking for help I just carry it on my own

And turnin to God was for the weak-lins'

I'm lookin at life through such a weak lens

I can't see clear but it ain't tears in my eyes

It's sweat pourin down from the years I done tried

To be my own savior said I'd never fail

But never had the righteousness it took to save myself

So this is where I turn confess believe

That Jesus is the only savior that I'll ever need

I repent tonight

Yeah it's like I always seem to fall catch me can you catch me

Can you catch me 'fore I'm gone I'm gone tryin it on my own

I know I can't do it but still I'm just holdin on

And when you see me up yeah I'm really down

And when you see me smile there's really no one around

So if I let it go promise you catch me now

Ya just catch me now promise you catch me now

There I go again fallin

Tryin to stand on my own still I'm just crawlin

Tryin be the man I should be that's my callin

But no matter how hard I try I don't ever really drive that stop

I'm one the verge of bawlin often I'm feelin like I'm hopeless

Feelin like I failed I'm groaning

Cause I grit my teeth and I strive each moment

Tryna be strong but daily I've blown it

Man, I don't know what's go'n happen I see

Some change gotta happen in me

I'm weak and some kinda power's lackin in me

I need grace that'd be sweet

Is there anyone to turn to give grace and peace

Do I really gotta earn you?

Can I be forgiven for the time that I burned through

I wanna learn and be freed

But I hear I gotta turn to believe please

Yeah it's like I always seem to fall catch me can you catch me

Can you catch me 'fore I'm gone I'm gone tryin it on my own

I know I can't do it but still I'm just holdin on

And when you see me up yeah I'm really down

And when you see me smile there's really no one around

So if I let it go promise you catch me now

Ya just catch me now promise you catch me now

There I go again yeah I blew it

Everything I don't wanna do I keep doin

Steadily feelin stupid instead of makin excuses

I just need to face the music I need ya

I lean on my own strength but it's useless

Cause healing only come by them stripes and them bruises

I chunk deuces and turn towards you

But sometimes I turn right back to it

Why do I abuse all the grace that you given me?

It's like I can't win man I still got sin in me

And I struggle just believin you forgiven me

Cause if I was you I would've been done, finished me

But we're not the same, mentally, thank God

Your grace is amazin look where you went for me

On them wooden beams took responsibility

For sin that you never did to call you a friend to me

Your ways are so high but you bent your knee

I keep fallin but you call to get on my feet

Keep walkin just what you started you will complete

Ima keep repentin til the day I leave

Yeah it's like I always seem to fall catch me can you catch me

Can you catch me 'fore I'm gone I'm gone tryin it on my own

I know I can't do it but still I'm just holdin on

And when you see me up yeah I'm really down

And when you see me smile there's really no one around

So if I let it go promise you catch me now

Ya just catch me now promise you catch me now

Yeah it's like I always seem to fall catch me can you catch me

Can you catch me 'fore I'm gone I'm gone tryin it on my own

I know I can't do it but still I'm just holdin on

And when you see me up yeah I'm really down

And when you see me smile there's really no one around

So if I let it go promise you catch me now

Ya just catch me now promise you catch me now