Paralytic States

She could hear them fucking through

Those thin hotel walls

She heard babies crying,

She heard laughter, she heard sirens

Red and blue lights flashing

Through those cheap hotel drapes

Blood spilled out on the porcelain

The bath tub's over-flowing

Paralytic states of dependency

All waking life's just a living dream

Agitated states of amazement

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Spread out faced down on those

Stained cheap hotel sheets

She spent the last years of her life

Running from the boy she used to be

Cut her face wide open

Shaved the bone down thin

Plumped her lips up exaggerated

A fucked up kind of feminine

Paralytic states of dependency

All waking life's just a living dream

Agitated states of amazement

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Night time at the hotel there was fighting in the hall

Thin chain lock to keep the world out

She held her breath till it was gone

Standing naked in front of that hotel bathroom mirror

In her dysphoria's reflection

She still saw her mother's son

Paralytic states of dependency

All waking life's just a living dream

Agitated states of amazement

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

Never quite the woman that she wanted to be

By the time the ball dropped it was already over

By the time the ball dropped it was already over

No resolutions for the new year beginning tomorrow