I Lost My Loss of Ruin

It can't be

It can't be here already

I've traveled too far

Much too much has dissipated into air

For it to have caught up

I'm coming back stronger than before

I'm coming back with a vengeance unknown

It might have caught me at the right moment

For I can feel the anesthesia

As it treads in water of distance

It made it clear

I knew I wouldn't make it out alive

I never, I never, I never had one at all

Love waking tears rather cause I can't remember

Where I put mine down