Closer to Death

Everyday I come closer to death

Gasping for air with every breath

The cold reality of all my fears

Tears me down and moves me to tears

It has always been hard for me

Maybe something you could not see

Solitude a cunning friend

Crafting the means to a lonely end

I have chosen life in this way

Avoiding the perils of each new day

Turning hope into agony

The depression has taken me...

Take me to see the angels

So I may pluck the feathers from their wings

Come to me and I will bring you down

Sometimes I dream of being alive

But the feeling quickly passes

Take away my pain so I may feel joy again

I hold the handle of a knife

That I may take my own life

Everyday my heart aches such as this

Oh how I long for joy's gentle kiss

But here I lie cold and alone

Where the tears are for my own

Trapped in this dark cell

A shadowy place I know too well

Under the beauty of an ethereal moon

In a raging sea of endless gloom

Ebony dreams fade into the night

Beyond my grasp they take their flight

Take me to see the angels

So I may pluck the feathers from their wings

Come to me and I will bring you down

Sometimes I dream of being alive

But the feeling fades… it fades

Take away my pain so I may feel joy again