Disappoint

Do you believe in the nobility of suicide?

No

Just one more time

For the sake of sanity

Tell me why

Explain the gravity

That drove you to this

That brought you to this place

That pushed you down

Into the soil's embrace

Give me the chance

I was denied

To sit and talk with you

For one last time

Did I disappoint you?

Did I let you down?

Did I stand on the shore

And watch you as you drowned?

Can you forgive me?

I never knew

The pain you carried

Deep inside of you.

I can't forget

Having to see

The words that knocked the wind

Right out of me

It's not enough

I've come undone

Trying to find sense

Where there is none

Just give me peace

You owe me that

To help ward off the fears

I must combat

Did I disappoint you?

Did I let you down?

Did I stand on the shore

And watch you as you drowned?

Can you forgive me?

I never knew

The pain you carried

Deep inside of you.

And so I ask

For one more chance

To understand

This senseless circumstance

Help me to see

This through your eyes

The reasons I've been trying

To surmise

Though you are gone

I am still your son

And while your pain is over

Mine has just begun

Did I disappoint you?

Did I let you down?

Did I stand on the shore

And watch you as you drowned?

Can you forgive me?

I never knew

The pain you carried

Deep inside of you.