Remembering

there was a time when you used to hold me to make me feel safe

and there was a time when you used to tell me stories

and there was a time when you used to sing me your songs

but I can't remember the last time

no

then there was a beautiful day when it all got to me

it all made sense but just a little too late

it could have been seen but there was no one to look at me

now

this beautiful day changed my life

you did not keep your promise and you never looked at me

cause then you would have seen that you and the one that's been gone

did everything wrong for me to handle it all and all alone

because no one feels more scared than I was

when lying in bed all alone

covered under the sheets cause the screaming was too loud

trying to forget the anger I saw when beating the both of us

afraid of you

for going upstairs

holding my hand

telling it won't happen all again

now that's the fear that I feel

when lying in bed

remembering and reliving every part that's kept in my heart

which I wish I never had

because then I wouldn't be able to feel the hurt and the pain

knowing there is someone to love me for real

now the pain that I feel when lying in bed

lying in bed all alone

remembering