It Never Felt Like This Before

You can't hear me speak

'cause I am mute

I hide too many things

I need a place to hope

I need your help to hope again

You see a laughing boy

This is not true - only a mirage

I can't conceal my fear

I have to be sincere

[Chorus:]

There is no way to forget

I broke your heart when I ran away

You didn't know what to do

I was only a stupid boy

When I look back now

I never felt so bad

To know that I've hurt you

Is worse than to break

Is worse than everything

Somehow I think my sparks are cold and useless

I play a role in a sad movie scene - a sad movie scene

I'm so afraid of myself

I'm so afraid of being here

I say sorry but it's not enough

I'm so afraid of losing my thoughts

[Eldron, August 2001]