Out of Here

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Okay so it might appear

To an outsider that you found your way up out of here

They're saying you died of suicide

That's the last thing I want to hear

They tell me that it's hardly fair to blame myself

What a hell of a cross to bare

You didn't say it in your letter

But the fact that I failed you is loud and clear

Found out the amount of fear

You would drown when you found yourself naked staring down a mirror

And partners are supposed to lay the cards bare

I left you playing solitaire, but I promise you that I'm sincere

If you're looking for some judgment, you won't find it here

Let's be honest here

I can't say I've never known that kind of despair

When the clouds appear, how's life fair

I just want to draw you near

Not to make it about me, but how could you check out

Before you really allowed me a chance to sit down and hear?

I think I would've listened

Or were you saying it all along and I just missed it?

You sang your swan song, we all dismissed it

Because you filled the room with laughter

I watched when you thought no one was looking at you

In hind sight, I wonder where your smile went

When the party ended and you swallowed it

I saw you swallow it

Okay so it might appear

That you took yourself up out of here

How many cries soak through your disguise

Before you drown in your silent tears?

Okay so it might appear

That you took yourself up out of here

How many times can you fight for your life

Before you throw that white flag up and volunteer?

Okay so it might appear

That you took yourself up out of here

How many cries soak through your disguise

Before you drown in your silent tears?

Okay so it might appear

That you took yourself up out of here

How many times can you fight for your life

Before you throw that white flag up and volunteer?

I've had car accidents

Where everything is slow motion no matter how fast it's happening

Every second that pass stretches so that you can watch it unraveling

But can't always react to it

Your whole life might flash before your eyes

The minute when you transition to the other side

But what can actually happen in that time?

In-between the leaping and the moment you collide

In-between the trigger and the blast

In-between you let go of the wheel and you crash

In-between the moment when you swallow the last pill in the bottle

Turn out the lights, roll the dice on tomorrow

Is there a moment to reflect, can there be regret?

Is there a wait not yet, let me reset?

Or is it just too painful to accept?

That maybe death just seemed best

Okay so it might appear

That you took yourself up out of here

If you not winning, you can go down swinging

Even if it doesn't feel like they're fighting fair

Okay so it might appear

That you took yourself up out of here

I'm trying not to resent you

But you left me defenseless in the life we share

Every man before me in my fam died by his own hands

How am I supposed to understand my own role in this plan

When nobody who grows old stands a chance?

What about this mysterious dance

Made you cut the cord to the curtain in advance?

But these are questions I can only ask

The person looking back in the looking glass