Rain Water

A question was raised to me the other day

"Why it seem you always have joy?"

Well, I'd like to take time to set the record straight..

All the joy I've ever known

Has disappeared

- in the motherfuckin thin air

Like it's never even been there

My joy left me y'all

God's rain water flow through the same gutter

That we, walk today gotta stay brave brother

Keep your lips stiff, keep your fist clenched

At times you gotta kick your way through this bitch

And I can't stop feelin empty smiling

A wise man once told me that every cloud has a silver lining

I wanted to believe him but it's a trick to find 'em

When the people around me continue dying

Granddad was in the twilight of his life

When he closed his eyes tight and opened his wrists wide

What make a tenth round finer with the winning score

Decide to eat or throw it's hollow for the whistle blow

Maybe I'll never know

But I inherited this poetic soul so the symbolism's yet to show

Was life so obscene that death's more serene?

Or was an old author tryin to write his own closing scene?

Nothing stings like knowing that the woman that gave me this life

Is being eaten from the inside

I thought we never make shit right

I wish I had of viewed it once clear before you were done here

That's two in one year that I let leave here

Loving me without sheding one single tear

Either I'm one of the strongest people left

Or y'all just tow me for even tryin to steal breath

And God's rain water flow through the same gutter

That we, walk today gotta stay brave brother

Keep your lips stiff, keep your fist clenched

At times you gotta kick your way through this bitch