Hold the Light

It's been a long year

Like a sleepless night

Jacob wrestled the angel

But I'm too tired to fight

Every Wednesday

For two years we've met

I've showed you all my anger,

My doubts and bitterness

There was no judgment in your eyes

Just the silent peace of God

That felt so real in you

Will you hold the light for me?

And I stay up late

Because I cannot sleep

I don't want to face the quiet

Where its just God and me

I'm waiting for the gavel

Handing me the sentence down

Because I don't believe forgiveness

Or even repentance now

I want to feel redemption

Flowing through my veins

I want to see with clear eyes

Beyond lust and hate

I want the war to be over

And know the good guys won

And I want love to hold me

To know I'm not alone

Standing around a willow weeping

We were praying in the backyard

In the chill of the night

The friendship light reminded me who we are