Grain Of Salt

So shallow, not even an infant

Could drown within this compassion

But I feel as if I've drowned just the same

But rather from my ignorance

That unconditional love might exist

I forgot the numbness, I forgot the frustration

That makes up my daily routine of just getting by

I am just barely getting by emotionally

Judgment, disappointment, a lack of patience for me

This is not security but such a pretty package

The guise is broken as the truth rears it's ugly head unto me

A drunken soul, I'm conscious again, I've weakened from my stupor

For the last time, so content caressed in rejection

For it's all that love has ever led to once again

The dying man lays down the law for this peon

It's his last grasp at control, a control that he lost

In infidelity from today, to you I'm dead

As an order accepting son, your searching and searching

But your family isn't at the bottom of any bottle

You're smoking us away, you're choking on your own

No place to hide other than my tears, they still give me away

Do all things end like this? Must all things end like this?

So shallow, I take everything with a grain of salt