Magician's Assistant

It's tragic;

You tried to cut yourself in half, but this ain't magic;

In fact it's something far more dark, & more dramatic.

Self harm, that's what they call it, 'cause it just affects you.

It's your life, your body, so you can choose what you do.

And if one day you can't rein it in, and of your last breath you are the only witness,

Then so be it, cause it's your last breath, and it's nobody else's business.

But, then, what about your little sister?

I mean, you think your life's been bad,

And by no means am I belittling that, 'cause I know the troubles you've had

But I tell you, finding out that her big sister chose death over life,

Finding out that, instead of turning to her with your problems, you turned to a knife.

Now that's a whole lot of pain to deal with,

And a whole lot of damage,

And the only role model she has now, is little more than words engraved in granite.

But as you said before, this just affects you.

It's your life, your body, so you can choose what you do.

And if one day you can't rein it in, and of your last breath you are the only witness,

Then so be it, cause it's your last breath, and it's nobody else's business.

But then, what about your parents?

God knows they've done all they can to support you.

Yeah, you didn't grow up in a mansion, but they gave you the best life they could afford,

And the moment that last bit of life tickles out, and your lungs cease to breath,

They have failed the most important task that they will ever receive.

They have failed to give their child a life that's worth living,

And that's a failure that as long as they live, of themselves, is unforgiving.

But as you said before, this just affects you.

It's your life, your body, so you can choose what you do.

And if one day you can't rein it in, and of your last breath you are the only witness,

Then so be it, 'cause it's your last breath, and it's nobody else's business.

But, then what about your friends?

H-h-how did they fail to see this coming?

I mean, you can only hold so much pain, and recently it seems like the tap's been left

Running.

Families grow distant, but it's s'posed to be your friends you can rely on.

They shouldn't just be there for fun and drinks, they should be your shoulder to cry on.

They should be the one you turn to, When you can't turn to your family,

But that failed too because, although you've never asked for it, their support should have

Been mandatory.

But as you said before, this just affects you.

It's your life, your body, so you can choose what you do.

And if one day you can't rein it in, and of your last breath you are the only witness,

Then so be it, 'cause it's your last breath, and it's nobody else's business.

But then, what about me?

What kind of boyfriend am I?

Instead of living a life I was a big part of, you would rather die.

Instead of fighting though together, and turning things around,

You decided the grass was greener On the other side of the ground.

Of our shared lives there was nothing worth living for, as far as you could see.

So if that's the case for you, what is there left in this life for me?

But What you said before, this just affects you.

It's your life, your body, your sister, your parents, your friends, and your partner,

So you can choose what you do.

And if one day you can't rein it in, and of your last breath you are the only witness,

Then fuck everybody else, cause that ain't something that you've got to live with.

The magician's assistant

Too many problems to list them,

Not enough people to listen.

The magician's assistant...

The magician's assistant...