Libertine Dissolves

I married into the fly trap

I sunk into suburban sand

Victimized by restlessness

Blacking out in the lion's mouth.

I laughed at the cigarette stain;

inhaling black on the blinds

And cried at the digital bulb blasts on the frames of my memory

I am transparent.

Denied, segregate from the obvious.

Drunk and despairing--sick.

"I loved a girl I'll never speak to again. I spoke to a girl I never stopped loving".