This Time

I want to hurt you and don't know why

Though i know it's not like me

I can not help it, though I try to keep you away

All this time i thought I knew who you were

But this time all your words were just lies for demise

And your thoughts were found unpure

So when push comes to shove i found reasons

To not work it out or relate

And get off on the fear that i get when your near

And the problems that I create

This time, I think you'll finally see

This time, I will not break

This time, I'm smart enough to know

There is only so much I'll take

This time, I'm gonna make change

This time, you're in my way

This time, I will not play the same head trip on me game that you play

Unresolved situations esculate

Inside something brings me to push

To find out what you can take

When we run out of love and change seasons

With our lives together at stake

I'm aware of tears that I give when your near

And the confusion that I make

I want to hurt you and dont know why

I can not help it, though I try to keep you away

I want to hurt you

I don't want to lie