Midline

I need help I can't leave I can't breathe.

I see my way out but I'm in too deep to care.

Emotionless, I feel myself about to break.

Self-destruction, self corruption, this life I know, this life I hate.

With each passing day my outlets slip away.

I believe the lies and I dig myself in deeper.

I play a daily game of tug a war between

What's in my heart and what's on my mind,

Not weighing circumstances, passing blindly by my chances

Knowing some day I might die.

In the silence of my nightmare no one else can hear me scream,

No one else knows what I need, no one else believes,

I could die and not care.

I need something to set me free.

Reflections from my past that seem so unreal to me,

I'm out of touch I can no longer feel me,

My heart is sick and my mind is reeling.

Don't know myself, don't know why I still don't care.

I'm the only one that's paying, and I'm the only one that's playing.

The more I struggle the more I lose.

I dig myself in deeper and still don't care

Then the moment comes when you reach for my heart,

I know it's to hard to find