The Remorse

Yeah, look

Me and Lil Sandra bagging CDs in the bubble wrap

People recognize me from the TV but I'm done with that

People don't want to see me succeed this shit come with that

Even when I come back I don't know if it's me that's gonna be coming back

Soon as I left I had to make peace with that

Dropped out of school cause nobody was teaching that

The best Western is where a nigga was sleeping at

Daemen College booking me to pull up and speak the facts

Even if they make a movie bout' us this shit'll be hard to reenact

Dislocated shoulder it's hard to be always reaching back

All these "I owe yous" it's hard for me to be keeping track

Friends who've dedicated their life to just keeping me in tact

Hard to pay 40 pay Noel pay Niko back

All the nights I needed to vent to someone at CJ's set

All the nights Chubbs was pulling up where I need him at

All the times Mark was making sure that my luggage packed and times he had to double back

I mean even with a salary you can't put no prices on that there is no salary cap there is no paying em back, for real

I wonder what it could've been if I had snakes in the mix

Actually I never want to know because we made it like this

Shots got to fly either way now make it or miss

Overtime I was all good we take it in shifts

What would you do if it wasn't this that's a hard one

The finish line is where I like to pull up and start from

Pain is just a place that I go and get the bars from

Anxiety's a drug that I use to get the job done

Delusional is a space I like to think that I'm far from

My son is the one thing I hate to be apart from

Bet against me don't know where they're getting the odds from

I know that when it's done I'm going wherever God's from

But I still don't know where I get the calm from

Yeah

Yeah, look

Got to hold my head high with two dry eyes

I told you everything is fine dog but I lied

I be trying to draw the line but it's a fine line

And I'm drowning out the noise from the sideline

Sometimes it's louder than the voice I got in my mind

I can't even hear myself when I get quiet time

Like how they telling me I'm done when I'm in my prime

They've been trying to push the narrative since 09'

And they've even had my ass convinced a couple times

But that ain't even the half I've had tougher times

Only look for sympathy inside my mothers eyes

And it's whatever with them niggas on the other side

We got problems we could never really put aside

I cracked the door for us all put my foot inside

I tried to kill them boys with kindness but they wouldn't die

So now I Kill 'Em All for acting like they couldn't die, yeah

My hard work doesn't just pay off it pays all the family debts off I'm taking heads off Future out here like Irving Azoff

House is paid off label paid off my soul for the money wasn't the trade off

Unlike most of you boys that fade off

I feel guilty taking some days off

Please don't Google my net worth the numbers are way off

I mean if you comparing it to what I really made off with

I'm more like Bernie with all the earnings that they came off

Trust me it was nothing light homes

They tried to give me a slice of the pie and I took the knife home

I know you love me can't picture being a hubby fingers too stubby to fit a ring on unless Kawhi want to run it back

Other than that the strings will be unattached

Certified Lover Boy I'm not the one for cuddling or none of that y'all music is watered down will you love em back

And you know what I'm on blowing past you, owning masters

Said you're like a father figure to me but now daddy's not around so I'm a bastard

Oh of course, the only villain that show remorse when I owe you more

Soft spot for all of the ones that came before I can't ignore it

I'm always trying to rekindle from the bottom to the top man what's it like in the middle

From the lemon faced radio host that love to be bitter

To my dogs in the game who wasn't pickett or litter

For the youngest out here starting from the beginning

Nobody praying for you when you winning don't forget it

Woah, woah, woah-woah

Woah, woah

Woah, woah-woah, woah

Woah, woah, ah

Said it's hard when it starts to fade away

Said it's hard when it starts to fade away

Yeah (Ooh, yeah)

Said it's hard when it starts to fade away

Hard when it starts to fade away

It's hard when the memories start to fade away

Said its hard when the memories start to fade away

(Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

(Ooh, ooh) So beautiful

Yeah, yeah, yeah