Déjà Vu

D.M.C. we have a mid 30s male

Found down unresponsive

Possible over dose

Substance unknown

Pulse is 60 and thready

Respiration's 8 he's intubated

And we're bagging him now

Uuh B.P. 90 over palp

Patient cool pale and diaphoretic

Has aspirated

Uuh G.S.C. is 3

We'll update en route

E.T.A. 10 minutes

As I fall deeper into a manic state

I'm a prime candidate for the gene to receive the drug addict trait

Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate

I seem to gravitate to the bottle of NyQuil then I salivate

Start off with the NyQuil like I think I'll just have a taste

Couple of sips of that then I gradually graduate

To a harder prescription drug called Valium like ya that's great

I go to take just one and I end up like having eight

Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate

Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak

And you'd think with all I have at stake

Look at my daughter's face... "Mommy, something is wrong with dad, I think.

He's acting weird again he's really beginning to scare me.

Won't shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me.

And all he does is eat dorritos and cheetos.

And he just fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat."

Sometimes I feel so alone,

I just don't know,

Feels like I been down this road before.

So lonely and cold.

It's like something takes over me,

Soon as I go home and close the door.

Kinda feels like deja vu.

I wanna get away from this place I do.

But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't

And why? I just don't know...

Maybe just a nice cold brew what's a beer

That's the devil in my ear I been sober a fucking year

And that fucker still talks to me he is all I can fucking hear

Marshall, come on, we'll watch the game it's the cowboys and buccaneers.

And maybe if I just drink half I'll be half buzzed for half of the time

Who's that mastermind behind that little line?

With that kind of rational man I got half a mind

To have another half of glass of wine sound acinine

Ya I know

But I never had no problem with alcohol

Ouch, look out for the wall aim for the couch I'm about to fall

I missed the couch and down I go looking like a bouncy ball

Shit must have knocked me out 'cause I ain't feel the ground at all

Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I?

Man fuck am I hungover and god damn I got a head ache

Shit half a Vicodin, why can't I?

"All systems ready for take off, please, stand by"

Sometimes I feel so alone,

I just don't know,

Feels like I been down this road before,

So lonely and cold,

It's like something takes over me,

Soon as I go home and close the door,

Kinda feels like deja vu.

I wanna get away from this place I do.

But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't

And why? I just don't know...

So I take a vicodin splash it hits my stomach and ah

A couple weeks go by it ain't even like I'm getting high

Now I need it just not to feel sick ya I'm getting by

Wouldn't even be taking this shit if deshaun didn't die

Oh ya there's an excuse you lose proof so you use

There's new rules it's cool if it's helping you to get through

It's twelve noon ain't no harm in self inducing a snooze

What else is new? Fuck it, what would Elvis do in your shoes?

Now here I am three months later full blown relapse

Just get high until the kids get home from two homes relax

And since I'm convinced that I'm insomniac I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take 3 naps

Just to be able to function throughout the day let's see

That's an Ambien each nap how many Valium? Three.

And that will average out to about one good hours sleep

OK, so now you see the reason how come he

Has taken four years just to put out an album beat

See me and you we almost had the same outcome heath

Cause that Christmas you know the pneumonia thing

It was Bologna was it the methadone ya think

Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos

Your VCR tape cases with you Ambient CR great places to hide ain't it

So you can lie to Hallie

I'm going beddy bye Whitney baby good night Alaina

Go in the room and shut the bedroom door and wake up in ambulance

They said they found me on the bathroom floor... Damn

Sometimes I feel so alone,

I just don't know,

Feels like I been down this road before,

So lonely and cold,

It's like something takes over me,

Soon as I go home and close the door.

Kinda feels like deja vu.

I wanna get away from this place I do.

But I can't and I won't say I tried but I know that's a lie cause I don't.

And why? I just don't know...