Dissed Him

I dissed him, now I miss him

But I miss him because I dissed him

But he done me wrong and I'm not that strong

To resist him, so I kissed him

Should I have kissed him when I dissed him?

Should I have dissed him but I only miss him?

I don't really know but I'm all alone

And I miss him, I really miss him

Now that he's gone out of my life

I don't know whether to laugh or to cry

It cuts like a knife, everytime we say goodbye

I wanna die (No)

He's so deserving, but he's so self serving

He made me so mad, I know it's sad

Cuz now I want him so bad

But he lied to me and he knows that that shit ain't gonna fly with me

So, I

Weeks come by, he doesn't show

I can't breathe no more and my heart is aching so

Confuse emotions in every way

And if I could have him here then I'd see better days

If he could see what he's done to me

I can't sleep and I can't eat and I'm on my knees

Begging the Lord to find my love and send him back

Cuz now I realize he was the apple of my eye

So what do I do?

I'm so in love with you but somethings got to change

Can't go on this way

I spent plenty nights trying to make it right

Cause I love you boy and I want you in my life

It's like a melody in a song that's haunting me

The memories of deceit makes it hard for us to be

I need a little discipline in my life

Cuz my soul I won't sacrifice