What Did I Do Wrong

What did I do wrong

Don't wanna live

My momma was a dope fiend but what I mean

She was mannic depressed, like the Supremes

And all my tears wiped with a cleanex

I'm on the scene and I drop dead like River Phoenix

A life I can't handle, so I drink Jack Daniels

Straight, I bought me a 38 with one shiny silver bullet

For the werewolf in me I don't pretend to be

I'm fucked up off life

I walk around with a bloody butcher knife

I wanna kill myself, but first

I think about what's worse

I vision my body take a ride in a hearse

And somebody, anybody, but nobody hears

Buried alived, pine box, and my deepest fears

I been doin' dope since I was 13

But when I close my eyes unconciously I scream

What did I do wrong

Don't wanna live

Overdose scare again, I'm doin' heroin

So been suckin' my leg like Nancy Kerragan

Heroin addict like Kurt Cobain

Needle's in your dick, 'cause your arms outta veins

The system raped me, society hates me

The man in the mirror is scared to face me

My only friend is me, but how can I pretend to be

My friend, I'm public enemy

A number one, son of a shotgun

So when I blasphamy, I bust a brain cell

Dead cells make me faint

But I can't faint no more I don't dream and never sleep walk

Uncut dope make me comotose

Growin' up with the scandalous from here to Los Angeles

What does it mean, infetamine, niggaz so envy they green

As I watch the fiends fiend, my mind screams

What did I do wrong

Don't wanna live

Your body's cold you feel numb from your addiction

Just say no's a contradiction

It seems like the whole world's high

And I'm tryin' not to fry, brain cells passin' time until I die

Suicide contemplated everything's drug related

I wish when my father got erect he woulda masturbated

Sperm concentrated now they sell it at the bank

What has life come to? Tell me whatta you think?

Crack babies be born like everyday

I sucker born every minute right around my way

What a rush when you're brain bust

All your shit got flushed down the toilet stew

What a fool

Who gives a fuck if you self-destruct

All you hoes and dreams 'cause you just a fiend

And this world ain't big enough for the both of us

Who can I trust with one slug down the bust?

And say

What did I do wrong

Don't wanna live