In All That Time

In a silent world

I had lived without sight or sound

In all that time

You know I felt that shame

But I put the blame on everyone around

In all that time

And I had lost all of my power, my faith and my belief

In all that time

And I had lost those wings that carried me

To any place I longed to be

In all that time

I should have

Let you know one thing

That what you saw

Was just my shadow

A picture black and white

The colours shining bright

Were washed away

In that rain still falling down on me

Was all that a curse

Whatever promised to get better

Turned out worse

In all that time

I lived under that spell

I was caught in my own private hell

In all that time

And I had lost all of my power, my faith and my belief

In all that time

And I had lost all hope

I was clutching at a burning rope

Helpless like a child

In all that time

I should have

Let you know one thing

That what you saw

Was just my shadow

A skeleton disguised

A soul devitalised

A body caught in automation

I lay awake that night

Wishing you could hold me tight

I could as well have been dead

I never dared to say the words I should have said

I should have known

That it won't get better just by waiting

Or telling myself

That I would try to be a better man

And I should have known

That I ran away too often

Instead of moving on

In a silent world

I had lived without sight or sound

In all that time

You felt my distress

And I can only guess

What you've been through

In all that time

I should have let you know

That I had lost all of my power, my faith and my belief

In all that time

And I had lost all hope

I was clutching at a burning rope

Helpless like a child

In all that time

I should have

Let you know one thing

That what you saw

Was just my shadow

A skeleton disguised

A soul devitalised

A body caught in automation

I lay awake that night

Wishing you could hold me tight

I could as well have been dead

I never dared to say the words I should have said

I should have known

That it won't get better just by waiting

Or telling myself

That I would try to be a better man

And I should have known

That I ran away too often

Instead of moving on

Instead of moving on