Killer's Lullaby

I'm sittin' at a coffee table, unable to see straight

Watchin' parallel lines unwind and undulate

Behind the rain-streaked windowpane, the scene's bleak

Another train leavin' home,

conceding defeat with a low moan

Hangin' in A sky, made of stone

Everybody's leavin' home, I called my man Jerome

To come meet me in the twilight zone

Leave your mobile phone at home and come alone

I bought him coffee and a snack,

settled back, started speakin'

He was tweakin' with the peak of his cap

While I'm seekin' to discover what it takes to stay sober

Not cover my mistakes,

try to maybe make sense of the evidence

It's over, she's gone for good

Why should I lie, singin' a killer's lullaby

Identified by the dying ring of her goodbye

The last thing you hear before your life disappear

Now it just gets worse, like my stomach 'll burst,

feel like I've been cursed.

With seven centuries of bitter memories

And inadequacies, previous he's and she's

I'm movin' round this old house for the last time

Scene of my past crimes, been here for lifetimes

Hearin' the chimes of the old clock that used to mock

You got eternity for takin' stock,

this place is like a padlock

You look shocked.

Trust me, nothing ever moves but the dust,

There's just us and I'm here to torment and tease

And that's how it was for centuries

Me and my memories, till you brought the keys

Took the couple of Saturdays

I moved in runnin' from tragedies and boozing

Seven hundred years since I came here

You appear, same hair, same quizzical stare

I couldn't get near,

And the sheer frustration was more than I could bear

I was really cursed, thought I'd been through the worst part

That was just the first part, just the start

Every night I'd be sittin' with dread pickin' my heart

In case the man she'd been chasin' gets to first base

An' I just can't escape, I'm in bad shape

You making love to someone else is more than I can take

And so I make all the movement I can to no avail

Scream and yell, sinkin' deeper into my personal hell

I'm getting heated, I'm sorry, have another coffee

I needed to release my sparrow chest from just a piece of this pressure

Unless an escape route is found,

I'm going down underground

Into lifetimes of pain, it's absurd

The heaviest chain is contained is the sound of one word

So I'm referred back to hell, huh

Just as well, I hate needles an' get twinges at the thought

of syringes

J, I'm going insane with shame

I dream and watch her makin' love over and over again

With what I call a farmer's swain

Unintelligent, pea-brained retard who's dick is always hard

Oh God, of course I'm jealous, fellows,

oversexed flexing his pec's

Jesus, what's he going make her do next?

I'm mad vex, the way she gently scratches his chest

You used to do that to me back in 1253

Pity me, while you lie with your lover

I stare and suffer in despair while you ruffle his hair

Unaware of who else is there

I move quick, I want to try my trick one last time

You know it's possible to vaguely define my outline

When dust move in the sunshine

So I'm tryin' to change, vibrate myself to near-human pitch

Which reminds me how I used to come unstitched

And switch 'round the house in a blind rage

It took years and an ocean of tears to find the key to this

cage

And write another stage into a new age,

it's difficult to gauge

But I know that I'll see you again, on that you may depend

I just don't know how or when

Sleep on, my lost love on gone

Jerome took me home under steel skies

Knowing I'm prone to dramatize but unknown for telling lies

And what I verbalize he can see behind my eyes

The why oh why's that identify killer lullabies

And he surmised

No surprise couldn't hear that

Closed my eyes as he steered that old black BM home again

Not knowing how and not knowing when.