No Hope Before Me

I've come to the end

Of my life in this time

The hope I once had

Is now gone and has died

I search for an ending

A quest – for the pain

I must endure forever, seemingly

My existence is bleak

Once, I had felt the joy of life

It seemed so good to me

The beauty of my wife

Was there for the whole world to see

With the birth of our son

I thought that I had it all

In the game of life, I'd won

Until it all began to fall

What had gone wrong?

I still don't know... why?

Feeling the blood

Of my only son

It covered my hands

What had I done?

Feeling that loss

And what it now means

There I had felt...

No hope before me

Ridden with the guilt

I had inside

I couldn't hide from the pain

Abandoned by

My heartless wife

I took her life

A stable mind

Has gone insane

Why me? Why this grief?

So many tears

With no sympathy

Why live this dismal life?

As death awaits

Please, just let me die

With the blade

Upon my wrist

How could I even resist?

Goodbye.