Slowly Dying Inside

Why can't they

See the dark

Inside of me

Deep within me...

They expect me

To put on a smiling face

They want me happy

But I can't lie

As I wipe away the tears

That stream down my face

The beauty they see

In this atrocious world

Has forgotten me in this life

I enjoy the misery

That breeds inside me

Please tell me why...

Happiness is a cruel myth

It eludes me every time

Creating a void in my life

Even just the thought of love

Is fantasy in this day and age

Nowhere left for me to hide

From this self-inflicted rage

Sleep, my only escape

From this pain

As I live inside a dream

Or so it seems

A perfect world

That never will exist again

This torment deep inside

Won't end

My life in ruins, I can't pretend

Darkness shrouds my every move

My mind is all that's left to lose

Sinking further every day

How could I live this way?

Defeated in this futile war

I cannot take this anymore

The light of the world

Grows dim in my eyes

As they bleed

Promises of a good life

Turn to lies before me

Save me from myself

This just isn't right

The want, the fear, the pain...

I cry myself to sleep every night

I feel I've lost the fight

The hurt never leaves

From my life

I slowly die inside

Is there a cure for this disease?

Or will I die in misery?

The pleasure in my life is gone

How did I last this long?

There was a time I had seen

The beauty of mankind

And unbridled love

Now I feel the anguish

Trapped within my soul

As I give in

The end is here for me

In this lifetime

Welcoming my demise