Hollow Inside

So burned out and so hollow

Emptiness is all that I feel

So easy to point out the others' mistakes

And so dishonest with myself

Doubts are all that is left in me

They're growing steadily

Everything is moving

But I seem to be stuck forever

The illusion to be happy just collapesed again

And all the mechanisms I've created fail

I am smiling but inside I cry

I am laughing but inside I burst with rage

I wonder why I do the same mistake

Over and over again

Almost sure I'll do it

I could change everything surrounding me

To build another reality

Too weak to change my desire

Too smart to fall for my own lies

And so I keep consuming

Trying desperately to fill myself