My Apology

Karma usually comes wearing a stranger’s light

it’s easier to deal with that way

but now it’s you

I’ve hurt you, disrespected you

it’s nowhere to hide, no turning back

no rearrangement, only what lies ahead,

and you’re so heaven sent

I know you’re feeling hurt

because of what I did to you

if it’s blame I’ll take it

baby, we will make it thru

cuz I love you (I love you)

I love you (think about it baby)

I’m sorry for giving you the cold shoulder

(never been this wrong before, never stood my ground and breathed it in before)

Lord, all I wanted to do is hold ya

(never felt so brave and so afraid before, never faced alone and felt a peace before)

With tears in my eyes I come to you sincerely

(accepting this space I’m in, growing outta the phase where I just wanna win)

You act as though you don’t even hear me

(look at me, baby, look at me)

Growth,

I released my grief

it was a heavy load

survived this sleep

and now I’m letting go

waking up and living up

to what I had proposed

a woman now,

I loved the girl I used to be

every step she took

was reaching out to me

every breath is blessed,

responsibility

I made it baby

I can’t control your feelings

I can’t take back what I’ve done

(with my hand on my heart)

I’m coming to you sincerely

if ya hear me (I know you)

Baby I’m sorry...

think about it

we know better

but um, love has no expectations

that’s why I don’t expect you

to do anything

think about it

this is for me

and I’m offering this to you

to free myself

cuz I know what I have to do

this is my apology

think about it

think about it, babe