Finger On the Trigger

I got my finger on the trigger

What if niggas really want me gone for good

It wouldn't be that hard

Everyday I tell the world, every single place that we are

I've been trying to be a star, but the hate come with it

They don't get it, I'm a do it to myself before anybody else

Swear to God that I'm ready for this shit to be finished

But would anybody care? Would anybody care?

Would anybody cry? Anybody do the same?

Would anybody die, a little bit inside

I've been digging in my mind, everything is for a reason

That's what they say about Jesus, I don't believe it

Cause the people that I need the most, always end up leaving

And this uncertainty's been irking me

This love I had is gone, I hate the life that I'm living

I'm wishing I could move on, I'm everything that I hated

I'm everything that is wrong, I don't know if I'm a be here

By the time you hear this song and it all falls down

And it all falls down and I hate this town

I remember rejection and it made it's rounds

And I hate the sound of your fucking voice

Cause it haunts my dreams

And I just can't sleep and it's not by choice

And I just can't breathe, everytime you speak

And I lie to hurt and I say it's love

And one time it was, how things have changed

I'm all about me, whatever happened to us

Cause we don't seem close, I ain't close to my folks

Ain't close to my bros, but I'm close to these hoes

They come and go, I'm all alone

I got my finger on the trigger

The pain you caused me, you'll never know

I'm ready to die

Got my finger on the trigger

I loved to loathe you, I'm letting you go

Cause I got nothing inside

You don't really know what you do to me

We ain't everything that we used to be

I'm ready to leave you truthfully

You should see my finger on the trigger

I'm ready to die

Let me think this through, let me think this through

If I leave right now what will it do, I got things to prove

A couple things to lose, what about my fans

What about my fam, they need this too

What about my Grams, rest in peace

She wanted me to see this through

What about my bro

He needed a father figure and I pretty much raised him

I gotta make sure that his head's on straight

And I gotta have faith that we both gon' make it

What about her, what about her

We lost that passion but we can make it work

We can make it work, I never wanted this to happen

And I've been selfish in my ways

I guess I brought this on myself

I always push you away

When you tell me you're there to help

And I still don't know where to go from here

I think that scares me most

I really just wanna make sure

That my story gets retold

And it's a shame, I feel so sane

With this gun on my brain

Adrenaline veins, feeling no pain

This might be the day that I ease off

And I call my nigga and he don't answer

I grab my gun and I pull that trigger, I pull that trigger