Soul Searchin'

Soul searching

Days like this I wish I didn't get phone service

Self-destructing sometimes it seems like it's on purpose

My biggest fear is going through life with the wrong person

Question it, is it all worth it?

When you think of death, do you get all nervous?

I spend my life tryna shine through them drown curtains

Tucking on my problems, pretending like it was all perfect

Then Love Yourz hit me

The grass is always greener, I need to cherish who with me

Complicated love it feel like Bobby next to Whitney

I need someone in the spot like just so I know that they get me

I wish she was she lost my confidence

I never turned her faith, I always moved on off commonsense

I let my happiness only stem from accomplishments

And now I'm falling off so I'm suffering from the consequences

The more I'm speaking positive, the less they listen

And the more that I'm evolving, they just reminiscing

And the more I get rejected, then the less I do

I lost my love for this shit, and I blame you

And I'm soul searching

Soul searching, soul searching oh no no

Soul searching, soul searching, soul searching

Yo, I'm digging deeper than I ever did

Momma wasn't sure about me, glad she let me live

Imagine what would happend if she never did

A lot of people in positions that I left them in

I think about my fears how they are still in me

What's real for you is never real for me

What you do in 20 years, I do it in a week

And what I always hoped to be, I already achieved

But now these people questioning my skills

I'm questioning myself 'cause they ain't copping what I sell

I'm reaching out for help, but don't nobody got the answers

I'm begging for a change, I'm finally praying I can feel

I'm going through the motions 'cause I'm paying all the bills

I got it in the moment, so I might as well just chill

But that ain't never been me, it's a frenzy in my mind

Will I see the other side? Maybe, only time will tell