Thoughts

My mind is hella hectic, day and night

I drink my sorrows down, with lean and sprite

I'm a sex addict and I need it tight

But Mary Jane is the only women that treats me right

And I think I might be just like my dad

He loved my momma more than anything, that's what he said

But he had ho's for days, that gave him head up in my bed

And 'til this day he tell me that he don't have a single regret

What the fuck am I supposed to take away from that

You ruined our family and you wouldn't take it back

Yeah you raised me up, but my lil brother suffered

And then I raised him, while I supported my mother

Motherfucker, I had to get that off my chest

Even though you left us then, now I still love you to death

But that bitch you married now, is a crazy ho

And I hope she hears this song on the radio

As a younging I would hustle, just to make some doe

Yeah, I sold trees to fiends, when I ain't even smoke

But that's good, cause I was upping all my profits

No matter where I went, I had some green up in my pocket

But these are just my thoughts and I'm coming from the heart

I wondered as a child, why I stuck out

They playing in my hair, I told them to get the fuck out

So I cut it and my grandmomma cried

She ninety seven now, thank God she's still alive

But, let me rewind, there was a day she wouldn't claim me

How could she tell her friends, she had a black grandbaby

Raising a nigga kid is something they couldn't tolerate

And now I only see her in the summers and the holidays

My white cousins used to live across the street from me

My grandfolks would visit them and never take a peak at me

I just used to run outside, with hopes of them just seeing me

It broke my heart so easily, I shut them out immediately

But I forgive you for your ignorance

Now I'm all grown up and I be on some different shit

But just know if I blow, you won't get a single dollar

With millions sitting around, that's a hard pill to swallow

Tell my uncle that there's nothing he can barrow

I wouldn't give a fuck, if he passed away tomorrow

Sorry, but I don't even know the man

Hope he's a donor, recycle him like a soda can

Kinda ironic how all of you is some Kobe fans

But you scared of brown skin, prolly wouldn't hold my hand

I understand and I see now that you trying

But I can't shake emotions from inside me

But these are just my thoughts and I'm coming from the heart

My momma is an angel, I love her so

I can't imagine a day, when I'd have to let her go

When we was broke, she was working and going to school

We moved into the hood, the only thing that we could do

She's so perfect, only flaw is that she need a man

I tried to grow up fast, to be the best one that I can

But she hates being alone, but who could blame her

The only problem, she'd take anybody who would date her

They just played her, while I sat there and watched her ball

I told her everytime, she wouldn't listen at all

It ain't my fault, but she acted like it was

You dating an alcoholic, with a crazy ass son

On to the next one, this nigga was something stupid

We scrapped a couple times and then I finally lose it

This nigga set me up and now you asking me to prove it

I had my hand on the trigger, you lucky I didn't pull it

And I'll never let that shit go

And if I see him now then it's popping like Crisco

But that's off the subject, fuck that nigga let him die

After he left though, the look changed in your eyes

You hated me inside and I could tell

You would curse me out and I would yell

We'd exchange words, that I'll never tell

He thought the only option for me, was dead or in jail

Bitch nigga, how you like me now

I'm doing my thing, I hope you proud

Yeah, I know my momma is

She be at my shows, fifth row hollering

Buying shots, for my under aged friends

We getting fucked up, let's do it again

I love her and I'm glad we how we is

I respect her and appreciate everything that she did

But these are just my thoughts and I'm coming from the heart