Better

there's no sense waiting in this state

i've realized too late

there's only so much left inside

only so much space to hide

i've dreamed of castles in the air

but i've never found out where

i need a break or a vacation

before i give myself a scare

don't try to understand me your logic won't command me

don't try to read between my mind

if i could kill you with a touch

i'd never hate this much

one thousand colors every day

but all i see is grey

my history is plagiarized

i feel desensitized

maybe one more shot of reason

will ripple this disguise

i told that man just what i thought of him

so i'm right where i am tied to this bed

subconsciously restrained and now i wish i hadn't said

what i said to both of my parents because i made my mother cry

if they'd only wait i'll make it up to them because i can be a better man

i'm floating in a frozen sea

i'll watch the morning break

giving way to shades of brown

i see the colors all around

for once there's no one here but me

and my autumn reverie

and in my heart i know

it's as close as i'll ever be