Faded

Where the hell have I gone to

Why's it got to be so motherfucking hard for me to call you

Staying up late trying to get it all straight

Every minute I've wasted

You were probably thinking I don't want to

That ain't the case

15 years and that ain't the case

Bad as it tastes

I'm the one to blame for putting up all the walls and demanding the space

And I just can't take it these days

So far out

Want to bring it home but I don't know how

Yeah man I don't know how

Family could be something I don't know 'bout

And I pushed you that far cause I got scared

Would've been hell but I could've said prayers

Should've been there

And it's not okay

That your name is one thing I don't know how to say

Faded

Looking for the words that I could use to get to you

Don't know how to say it, faded

Hopefully it's getting through

Cause everything is faded

Looking for the words

I don't know how to say it, faded

Hopefully it's getting through

Because everything is, faded

Where the hell did you go to

Why'd you make it so motherfucking impossible to go through

Running on fumes

Trying to follow your tune

We were running around in circles

To the point that it was dangerous to know you

I could've reached out

15 years and I should've reached out

But I couldn't find the person I was looking for

Even if I did I was scared that you would have been underneath in the ground

And I ran from that

Ran from that

Too damn scared to take a chance with that

So the bogs got packed

Blood got cold

Names got changed and your kids got grown

Grown

Looking at the phone with a broken heart

Trying to keep a piece of what fell apart

Dark night and it's not okay

That your names one thing that I don't know how to say

Faded

Looking for the words that I could use to get to you

Don't know how to say it, faded

Hopefully it's getting through

Cause everything is faded

Looking for the words

I don't know how to say it, faded

Hopefully it's getting through

Because everything is, faded