Pressure Cracks

I feel like I've been breathing out of an exhaust pipe

On the job site, with a fist full of brittle sand

Should have seen it coming

A mile away from the little hill in which I'm making a stand on

It makes a man of me (doesn't it?)

And if it never kills me then I get a pass

Wish I could've opened up the air around me

Just a little bit so I could take a gasp

Who the hell is watching?

Put a notch in my belt, keep it on the tracks

Shoulda woulda coulda never made a difference

When you're playing chicken with your only chance

But it made a man of me, right? Mad man

That gotta dance around and play his sounds

Wish I knew back then what I know now

Yeah, look at me now!

Dodging forever

Spending a fortune to figure it out

I don't believe it

Never learned how

All of this pressure is driving me wild

Look at me now

I'm starting to feel like it's stacking on my shoulders

Another soldier with little patience to see the dawn

Fought a lot of odds, in the name of cause

Put em in a box buried in the lawn

But I learned a lesson from it, didn't I?

And if I didn't who the hell is gonna teach me?

I've been looking for answers

And none of em ever offered a lesson that'll reach me

Who can see me?

Losing personal relationships like people do they house keys

I've been outside, looking inside

With a shadow casted all around me

And they doubt me

Try to throw a little part of me away with every frown

Just wish they saw what I know now

Yeah, look at me now!

Dodging forever

Spending a fortune to figure it out

I don't believe it

Never learned how

All of this pressure is driving me wild

Look at me now