Smoke In The Night

I often wonder why we never made it home

And why it feels like all the effort that we gave was never noticed

The pressure kept on building up and closing in

And by the end, hell, I swear to god I couldn't swim

Like since when did all of this become so hard to walk around

I miss the music that influenced us to talk about it

We used to sit around for hours trying to find ourselves inside a song that made us want to stop and smell the flowers

For a second, just a single second's all I wanted

Now I feel like every star I use to find you with is falling out the sky

Now I can't even seem to find the time

And if I did, I doubt you'd even look me in my eyes like you used to

Everything we had is just a story now

And anyway I see it it's impossible to word it out

Word of mouth says you still leave the candle lit

Hoping that somebody will notice and hold your hand through this

It wasn't anybody's fault

From the moment I was leaving I could feel it in my veins

Thought that I was someone that won't forget your name

You begged me to not get on that train

You told me that I wouldn't come back the same

I couldn't help myself from the minute I was leaving

I could feel it in my veins

I begged you not to stand in the rain

I told you that the weather around here don't change

You couldn't help yourself from believing that I'm someone

That won't forget your name

Every now and then I pick the phone up

And dial in your number and stare at it for a moment

I never call, I never will, it's hard to focus

That's what we get for throwing love into the ocean

Tied, cutting ties stuck inside trying to make it out

I string it up write the line and try and lay down

If I could find the peace of mind to go and press rewind I'd do it in a second if I thought that I could stay around

For just a second, just a goddamn second

I would freeze the whole entire world in place if it let me

You always told me I was gonna make a difference

I just never thought it'd be the kind that'd eventually split us

And I'm sorry, I never meant to leave you all alone

And have you living life with a person over the phone

The folks from back home say you still leave the lantern lit

Hoping that somebody will notice and help you manage this

It wasn't anybody's fault

From the moment I was leaving I could feel it in my veins

Thought that I was someone that won't forget your name

You begged me to not get on that train

You told me that I wouldn't come back the same

I couldn't help myself from the minute I was leaving

I could feel it in my veins

I begged you not to stand in the rain

I told you that the weather around here don't change

You couldn't help yourself from believing that I'm someone

That won't forget your name

You begged me to not get on that train

You told me that I wouldn't come back the same

I couldn't help myself from the minute I was leaving

I could feel it in my veins

I begged you not to stand in the rain

I told you that the weather around here don't change

You couldn't help yourself from believing that I'm someone

That won't forget your name