So What?

I recall everything I was told

Boy you'll never live to be 18 years old

Dead or incarcerated just like those

People who wonder down similar roads

Leavin out the house

She said please don't go

Granny why you steady tryin ta save my soul

If death is my destiny like you had said to me

Let me get busy before he gets the best of me

Don't you know bullets don't have no brain

And alot of youngings don't have no aim

Am I living or dying somebody please explain

Goin or staying because I'm going insane

I'm strapped up cause he is

Shishty cause she is

Meanwhile dude who teach chemistry is

In his office with a kid doing shit I get expelled for

Which makes me wonder why people go to jail for it

Even if I did die young so what

Nobody expected me to ever grow up

Grandmama lectured me you better grow up

But there wasn't no telling me I was a grown up

I'm a kid peeping in justice yall let slide

But your so quick to point out mine

That's what made me draw that line

Blinded by my own design

I'm doing fine, no I'm not I'm doing bad

But I'm so afraid to talk

Yall got shit going on

I don't wanna bother yall

Pops cut from a different cloth

Never be the man that he was

Thought I was slow, I turned out to be a genius

And I ain't returned like eat my peanuts

Let my our bank statements be the difference between us

If I seem distant, bitch I'm 30 something

I was suppose to been done been a murder victim

My grandpa prayed until his knees gave way

If you can`t save me, God please save Jason

The way I went in that's the only explanation

I know some bad dudes enough to know I ain't one

Even if I did die young so what

Nobody expected me to ever grow up

Grandmama lectured me you better grow up

But there wasn't no telling me I was a grown up

I was confused and you can hear it in my rhetoric

In retrospect I never should have made it back

I wrote my Senator and never got a letter back

My friend Chris got killed for a Cadillac

My man Mike died for a powder pack

So understand why I could think I was next

Under attack guns and crack

Or the mother fuckin police shoot us in the back

And ah, they think it only happens to blacks

And refuse to believe it almost happened to Stak

Stabbed in the back

Blood beating threw a heart filled with crack

Soldier up fought through that

Injuries alot of players don't walk off

I walked off cause I ain't the type to walk off

If you family your suppose to love me when I'm wrong

Be a man and represent me when I'm gone

Stones in a foundation get looked over

But without them the whole damn house falls over

This is for the rocks that exist beneath me

The block which gave me a past to be me

BB's are baby bullets, baby's are in training

My people were bangin before they called it bangin

Just chillin, hangin, words exchange

One thing lead to another, all I heard was

Even if I did die young so what

Nobody expected me to ever grow up

Grandmama lectured me you better grow up

But there wasn't no telling me I was a grown up