Abandoned

They heard it all

All those who knew me

When I received Your holiness

When you gave me new freedom

Took me to Your Kingdom

I spent all my time around You

They all could see

As things kept turning

And I returned to my old ways

To the weakest and the dearest, all my nearest

I caused grievances and heart ache

Bowing down again

I have no strength to live in today

Jesus, was I left behind or

Have you no space in my heart?

Trading in for slavery

A freedom dearly bought

I can't rid the shackles off me

Jesus, would you take me home now?

I have no more strength to care

I cannot and I will not

I leave all this behind me

There is no way returning

There is no God left for me

You made me empty

Guess, to fill me

But sin was able to survive

I lost my faith in strength

That is found in repentance

Although I wished to find Your face

I guess this world

Needs someone wretched

Reminder to blessed ones

The wish of our Creator

Was to cease my failure

And to cure this twisted nature

Where's the strength to go on?

I have no friend to comfort my soul

Tell me what kind of a hero

Stumbles on the smallest rock

Dies on way to battlefield

Ends up a laughing stock?

Achieving merely evil

Maybe I was duly judged for

Mocking God's own Holy Ghost

This mighty warrior of the Lord

Shall in flames of hell be lost

Where there is no way returning

There is no God left for me