Sleepy California

I used to think that I knew

My way around this town

But I'm always getting lost

Since you're not around

I never thought that I would say this

But I miss my mom

Even though for all those years

We didn't get along

And when I stop to think about it

I guess we were the same

Too stubborn to apologize

Too filled up on rage

I wish she felt young again

When everything was new

When her father held her hand

And said, "There's nothing you can't do"

And then I woke up to a phone call

Right On Christmas day

It said, "Your grandmother is dying

In a painful way

Her lungs are filling up with fluid

Even as we speak

The doctor said that if she's lucky

She'll make it 'til next week"

I had one last chance to see her

Right before I moved

But I didn't end up going

I used some lame excuse

I hope that she's not scared

Lying there alone

I hope she hears her husband's voice

Telling her she's coming home

It's just sleepy California

But I just hope they know

It's just sleepy California

How much I really care

It's just sleepy California

How I want the best for them

It's just sleepy California

Even though I'm hardly there