Triggered

I remeber the past

like with real eyes

I am in flashback

all my feelings are coming back

I don't know what is real

I fall bak into dreams

into black holes

acting poor roles

creeping under my skin

torture's teasing pain in me

triggered - black mass released

triggered - dark suns collapsing in me

I wear the bygone mask

dissociated eyes

staring in fear

all my tension is building up

I'm exploding with rage

aimlessly punching round

striking with hate

unable to stop

blood running from my hands

trigered by fear; exhausted by pain

triggered - black mass released

triggered - dark suns collapsing in me

I cannot see what is real

I cannot feel where i am

it's starting again

it's rising up

escalating with brute force