A Million Exploding Suns

I've forgotten who my name

sick and weak and fresh from sleep

i crawl from a crooked bed

with dirty feet and shaky hands

the numbers on the clock read

one-one-four-oh a.m.

ive got enough time to clean myself

then sell my soul again

when i sleep i dream

i dream i am awake

or was it when im awake

i dream i am asleep

I work i shit i eat i sleep

inspected by the number seven

this cant be my life

no this isn’t me

i don’t know whats beset this change

i barely recognize my own face

in my mind somethings i know something's not right

but in my heart im bathed in golden light

well im bathed in GOLDEN LIGHT!

Well im bathed in a GOLDEN LIGHT

my eyelids still heavy my pulse still faint

im puzzle pieces- my memorys stained

i feel strength swell a day dream

im shaking under this duality

my pulse is still faint

i hear a strange voice but dont know what its saying

AND IN THIS MOMENT

seconds stop and i BURST with the clarity

a wealth of love and hate-- gone blank

for i finally remember MY FUCKING NAME!

I EAT ROCKS

AND I BREATHE WIND

IVE BEEN AROUND THE WORLD

AND BACK AGAIN

ive lost the static

the grey is gone

i have the power of

A MILLION EXPLODING SUNS!!

I AM CONSUMED BY MY MIGHT

BLINDED IN LIGHT AS I WOULD BE IN NIGHT

THE VOID IS HOLDING ME TIGHT

IT DOESN’T FEEL RIGHT

When will I ever break FREE

Within or without im chained by the dream

THE VOID IS HOLDING ME TIGHT

IT DOESN’T FEEL RIGHT

When will I ever break FREE

Within or without im chained by the dream

the void and the light are both me

IT DOESN’T FEEL RIGHT

Now bright lights flood my eyes

its true I realize

The perilous truth of a perilous life

about my own demise

The strength of my high is the strength of my low

unless theres no me

they both

THEY BOTH EXPLODE