Extremely Dark Days

I can´t even remember when the sun died

there´s just drabness in my mind

Why should I explain that even breathing is so tiring

on a crossing leading to the other side

Leave me lying calmly under the creased blanket,

let me doze off and go away

Darken the room with autumnal twilight

open the windows to freezing air

Yesterday I observed the sky, awaiting a ray of light

but all I could see around me was completely dark,

as reconciled flesh leisurely consumed by eternal night

through the mouth of Mors, with every new breath I am

inhaling death

Falling into a warm volcanic throat

Never to be born again

Relief´s waiting at the end of the road

Deliverance from torturous pain

Why are you telling me merciful drivel about the will

to live?

My power is gone, just a pre-mortal feeling deep inside

of me

My train is brought to a standstill in a neglected

terminal station

Just howling of forsaken dogs as a closing oration

The awaited morning is not coming again

Night simply turned into another one

Every look back hurts as a knife stab in brain.

Flashbacks are bringing me down

Today´s winners stand on the opposite shore

Glad they are saved for another day

Everyhting that could be lost……is lost

Such an extremely dark day!