Alice

Dear diary

This battle’s on the verge of emergency

Call in a chemical warfare attack

Tempting fate with the crisis that my vices will orchestrate

Cold sweats as my bold pupils dilate

I could die from the weight of it all

Or make it through another close call

Here’s a note to myself, “Back to the wall

The higher you get, girl, the further you fall”

Here’s a note to myself, “Alone in my pain

How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?”

Through blackened veins the evil in the needle bleeds into my brain

And sells me on the sense of a fool’s escape

I could die from the weight of it all

Or make it through another close call

Here’s a note to myself, “Back to the wall

The higher you get, girl, the further you fall”

Here’s a note to myself, “Alone in my pain

How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?”

Before you walk away

But I just need one more taste, one more taste

Scars earned from searching for solutions

So desperate just to feel

Sold on self-prescribed pollution, just distorting what was real

And so it goes in the throes of what I can’t overcome

Painfully numb

Dear diary

This battle’s on the verge of emergency

Here’s a note to myself, “Back to the wall

The higher you get, girl, the further you fall”

Here’s a note to myself, “Alone in my pain

How close can you come to the edge before you walk away?”

Before you walk away

Before you walk away