In Sadding Around

Sleeping off the last five years

Takes another five.

Recovery in lieu of

Being here right now.

When I throw myself at your feet,

You know it's to be walked on.

We're breaking up

Every single night.

If I had a choice,

Don't you think I'd make it?

I lost my voice.

Hope I didn't break it.

Little demons by my bed

Whisper secrets.

The kind you never hear.

I dip my toe in this cold, cold life.

I want to dive but I can't find your feet.

You with a view so unlike my own.

I'm trying on your eyes.

So I let go, fall to the ground.

It's a long way down again.

Petty cons keep peeling back my ears.

We make plans.

Collaborate and give to you

My better half.

Until now just dead weight,

A prisoner of doubt.

In a cell we kiss and tell

All our keepsakes.

I dip my toe in this cold, cold life.

I want to dive but I can't find your feet.

You with a view so unlike my own.

I'm trying on your eyes.

So I let go, fall to the ground.

It's a long way down again.

Sore, hit the floor.

Got my first glimpse of the sky.

The stars were on your side.

Who would've thunk

The thirteenth fell on Friday?

I say hello and it's goodbye again.