Live 4 U

It's kinda hard to explain

but I been thinkin, haven't come to a decision

Drinkin away the pain night after night, listen

It's like I'm caught in the rain, that never stops and only follows me

Wide hollow feelin of emptiness, nothing inside of me

Drama lays my head on the pillow, but still no sleep

Been walkin the Wonderland for 40 days and 7 weeks

Just wonderin how good it would be, to finally say goodbye

to everything that's goin wrong, God, especially me

I want to let go, let my mind just finally be free

Breathe with no echo, tomorrow won't be less without me

I stay in wet though, only thing that keeps me on the side

of the living is you, said the same thing to me too

Otherwise, I'm just caught up in deception and lies

I have days of just wakin and hatin the sunshine

Hatin life itself, hatin death for takin it's time

Lovin you enough not to commit the ultimate crime

I sin in my mind though, visions of weaponry wettin me up

Payin people off for settin me up

Some crazy wild sick imagery, paintin pictures of bloody scenes

Seems the only peace of mind's in dreams

So I pray for never-ending sleep, but it never comes

So I pray for being so weak, and givin up

Friends say I live the party life, livin it up

One hand on the glass, other on the bottle, fillin it up

I want to leave so bad, but lovin you is enough

to make a slow exit to Hell, would never leave you here by yourself

Nobody else could keep me here but you

Nobody else could wipe away the tears but you

I love you too much

I would, give my, life for you

If you asked me too

I would do, just anything for you

And the world if I could

I would give to you

But I don't have anything to give

So I sweat just to live for you

Live for you

Are you dissapointed in me? Twenty-three, can't get it together

No money, no job, debt that seems to last forever

I just want to make you proud someday

Like acceptin awards that's in front of a crowd

and say "Thanks" in front of a million people

Tell you I've fallin victim to some evil things in the past

My road's been short but rough;

a lot of things you don't know even if you ask

I want to tell you all but I can't, you're too precious for that

Try and explain why your daughter is into rap

I'm like guilt with a guilty conscience

Emotional politics wild on me

Constantly pregnant with a rowdy problem child in me

I wonder if we switched places, changed the dial on me

Would you rather be somebody else's mommy? Divorced probably

Just show me, no apology needed, I understand the reason

It's the quality of livin, and what you want for children

I'm not givin it, but you're the kind of love that never gives up

I would, give my, life for you

If you asked me too

I would do, just anything for you

And the world if I could

I would give to you

But I don't have anything to give

So I sweat just to live for you

Live for you

I promised I'm gonna buy you that house on the beach

A whole damn street

And give you grandchildren, two maybe three

Build you a studio and get you back to recordin

and singin whenever you want, give you whatever you want

I know you miss the music too, you just put up a front

But I can see it in your eyes, musical echo soul cries to be free

Don't you worry about me

I'm gonna be alright, when I'm in darkness in my life

I just think different, like you taught me

The way you do, shine different, they all can see

I just want to tell you you're loved

And anything that I can ever do for you is never enough

It's never enough, it's never enough

I would, give my, life for you

If you asked me too

I would do, just anything for you

And the world if I could

I would give to you

But I don't have anything to give

So I sweat just to live for you

Live for you