Momma Said

Here we are, all alone

Who gives a fuck about what they say

I'm sure I've heard much worse

People need to worry about them first

People need to learn to mind their business instead of mine

Here we are, all alone

Who gives a fuck about their dismay

But still I'm face to face

With the one person I can't replace

One person I can't just tell I'm doing fine

What up Ma

Been a while

Lot of catching up to do

Know you got a ear full

I'm listening

Momma said she loves me, said she cares

Said if I need her, she'll always be there

But even her saying that struck me as weird

Why did she feel those words I needed to hear?

Said she understands me, that was rare

Cause no one understands me, not even my peers

And these just thoughts I never bother to share

So as I write, my eyes start to tear

I ain't tell her I'm tired, but still trooping

Alone, but I find myself regrouping

Ain't say my brain now feel like a prison

Figured I'd shut the fuck up and listen

She continued, that was honorable

Said said I get more and more irresponsible

For normal folks, she said that's a challenge

Luckily I mask mine behind talent

She said "you are no longer yourself"

I don't know what to expect of you"

Said I'm putting up with things I normally wouldn't

She don't know why it's acceptable

She said "people living in your house"

"Don't pay shit, not respectable"

I told her, they're folk I think highly of

She said "well they must think less of you"

Must feel entitled, all you doing"

I said I'll fix it, she said no you won't

Then I got defensive, but still replied

I told her I need them, she said "no you don't"

Then she said, "when's the last time you spoke to your father?"

I said he's self-centered, why bother?

Cause he only really call about his needs

And I ain't got enough time to deal with his greed

Cause my days are darker

Cut from a long shank but the blade is sharper

I'm making my not-so-vague departure

Tell pop I'm his son, not his spades partner

Last time that we spoke

He wanted to use the crib, throw a party here

Which wasn't partly fair

My home need to feel like home

Even if I throw a party here

Then he catch an attitude

And I catch one right back at you

We adore each other, but ignore each other

Think this is how the fuck I wanna act with you?

Things just ain't the same

But he sure will call about a Yankee game

Like call C.C. and get back to me

What's ill is he say it so casually

I love him so much he can have all the perks

Hurts so much, I take all the Percs

Hurts so much but fuck it, it works

Hurts so much that I can't sleep

Mom say I need to sleep more

Then again, she ain't on this stress level

So many people rely on me

I'm trying to get us all to the next level

Wait, told her I took baby girl to the doctor

It was only for a check up though

And she gave me the face like

"Now would be time if there's anything I feel I need to let her know"

But, that's just mom again, just being a mom again

Looked down at the tat on my arm again

God please give me the strength, keep calm again

She asked me if Kaylin was pregnant

I looked at her like she was crazy

Cause that's my baby, what's wrong with a baby?

She said "nothing at all when you're not dating a baby

Beautiful girl, I like everything about her thus far"

I just don't wanna see you fall"

Just a tad bit young, so she got some growing up to do

And I replied don't we all

Momma said "why can't you ever be alone

I said what do you mean?

Went to correct her, she did it herself

She said "at least that's how it seems

Pop ain't called, he's still mad

Still pissed, he's still angry

I'm still going, no plan of slowing

No way I'll ever let his immaturity taint me

Momma said that Tahiry called

That ain't shock me, they speak a lot

She's helpful.....