Lyrics John Reuben

John Reuben

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broken reality theres no means of escape

broken reality lookin' to leave this mind-state

but the more that i leave the harder it seems i come back

now im livin' out these lies that i call my trap

and i call it that cuz i didnt do this intentionaly

what i now call my trap i used to call my fantasy

and why do i fantasize in order to leave the reality

of not being able to relate personally or socially

somtimes i wonder what it would be like to be respected

but until then i'll dream about bein' accepted

i wonder what it would feel like to be respected

Chorus:

all wrong no right no one no sun no light

this life this fight i'll hide

inside no matter where you go you cant escape whats inside.

man somebody get me out of this place

of loneliness hopelessness depression and disgrace

at this pace i'm on the verge of self-destruction

with nothin' to go on but my self instruction

so what does that leave me

i try to communicate with the world but none of you out

there could perceive me

so instead of words i began to express through actions

so anger n rage become my mere satisfaction

hate fills my being i'm seeing no means of release

so i escape into my fantasy where i live in peace

here i can be anybody i want to here i can be anybody i choose too

here in this place i feel good theres no restriction this place

is so good that its becoming my addiction

i say im not lost but why am i searching

i say pain dont fade me but then again why am i hurtin

i say i wont show emotion but yet

i cant hide these eyes that have been stained by tears

i say i cant be help back but yet ive

been in the same place for years

i say i wanna go free but something keeps me bound

i say i wanna go higher but my feet havent left the ground

man i told ya'll i didnt care but then

again why is my heart so heavy

i told the world to bring it but deep down i knew i wasnt ready

i said i couldnt be deceived meanwhile im

walking into the same old traps

i said i couldnt be broke as i watch my world collapse

watch my world collapse

Chorus:

no matter where you go you cant escape whats inside

no matter where you go you cant escape whats inside

no matter where you go you cant escape whats inside

no matter where i go