Deny Myself

No one's going to do it but me

For the way that things have got to be

Contaminated indecision

Running through the family

And now these things are coming out

As I live in an every day life

I see it can't be

Can I believe in God

Or can he never believe in me

Is it just another thing passed on to be

Some things go to be out

There waiting for me

Born into a legacy

More commonly known as pain

I'm sick of trying and looking for answers

The answers too painful to see

Deny myself to obliteration

The only way out

No feeling of compassion

No feeling at all allowed

The past is so hard for me to see

Stare at the walls all day

Feels like I'm going crazy

What must it take to find out why

Because when I do the things I can't believe

The feeling can't lay down and die

No one's got to do it but me

For the way that things have got to be

No lies

No pseudo suppression

Gotta break free