What I'm About To Say

What I'm about to say May come out of the blue A sudden darkness that won't disappear

What I'm about to say May break our world in two But one that wasn't ever really here

And does it matter in the end How long we've loved or how we've made it last It's taken longer to pretend To hold on to an image of the past

Cause what I'm about to say I've told you time and time again Only I just wasn't speaking out Or you wouldn't understand How my love had worn away That's what I was trying to say

What I'm about to say May twist a dagger in your heart And shatter all the hopes and dreams you had

What I'm about to say May leave you badly bruised and scarred Wondering if live was ever meant to hurt like that

But does it matter in the end What could have been or what we've lost We build a fortress out of sand With borders that nobody should have crossed

Cause what I'm about to say I've told you time and time again Only I just wasn't speaking out Or you wouldn't understand How my love was torn away That's what I'd been trying to say

I told myself all wounds could heal If only given time But love felt like a poisoned arrow Stuck inside my mind I wanted to believe so badly Trust could be rewon And God knows that I tried to love you But the feeling's gone

Now I watch you sleeping, peacefully, unarmed Lying here beside me, unaware and unalarmed I pray the night won't go away For what I'm about to say.