She Didn't Want

She was surrounded by a warm glow

She felt calm and relaxed

For a change

It all started to seem so funny to her

So meaningless, so beautiful

For a change

She didn't want to kill

She didn't want to die

She didn't want to live

She didn't want to lie

All hunger was gone

All desire

She didn't care what was on the television today

She didn't want to know

She didn't want not to know

She didn't want

For a change

She didn't want to suffer

She didn't want to bleed

She didn't want to masturbate

She didn't want to need

The universe was singing to her

She was singing

The universe was breathing to her

She was breathing

The universe was crying to her

She was crying

She was feeling it all

And it was so much for her

Almost too much for her

She passes out

She wakes up years later

No time has passed

Nothing has changed

No news is good news

She says