Let It Go

My mama gave me up when I was four years old

She didn't destroy my body but she killed my soul

Now it's cold 'cause I'm sleeping in my back seat

Understand the spirit's willing but my flesh is weak

Let me speak, I never had a chance to dream

Ten years old and finding love in dirty magazines

Ms. December you remember I bought you twice

Now I'm thirty plus and still paying the price

Had a sister that I barely knew

Kind of got separated by the age of two

Same mama different daddy so we couldn't fake it

I saw my sister's daddy beat her in the tub naked

Take it serious the demons in the man's mind

The same man with rape charges now he's doing time

Crack followed and like daddy prison thirteen years

Haven't seen her but she's traded tears for fears

Shout, shout, let it all out

These are the things I can do without

So come on, now, I'm talking to you

So come on

I got some more

Sex was how I made it through

Without someone to teach you love what else is there to do?

So where I'm from they call you gay, say you ain't a man

Show them you ain't no punk, get all the girls you can

A simple plan that still haunts me even now today

Back to seventeen and got a baby on the way

No G.E.D. all I see is failure in my eyes

If you listening and remember I apologize

I was raised falling in the church

Made mistakes heard the Lord's calling in the church

After service on the parking lot getting high

Wanted to be accepted so bad I was willing to die

Even tried to tell the pastor but he couldn't see

Years of low self esteem and insecurities

Church taught me how to shout and how to speak in tongues

But preacher teach me how to live

Now when the tongue is done, help me

Shout, shout, let it all out

These are the things I can do without

So come on, now, I'm talking to you

So come on

Listen to me, I'm talking to you

See I'm a, see I'm a

I just wanna let it go

I just wanna let it go

Just wanna let it go

Jesus please on my knees can't You hear my crying

You said to put it in your hands and Lord I'm really trying

You wasn't lying when you said, "You'd reap what you sow"

Like that night mama died, it's hard to let it go

You adopted me, cared for me, changed my name

But I cursed at you, lied to you, left your pain

It's not strange I can still see it in my head

To know for hours you were laying there in that bed

If you listening to this record, if it's day our night

If your mama is still living, treat your mama right

Don't be like me and let that moment slip away

And be careful 'cause you can't take back what you say

To my real mama if you listening, I'm letting it go

To my father I forgive you 'cause you didn't know

That the pain was preparation for my destiny

And one more thing Lord, let my son be a better man than me

Shout, shout, let it all out

These are the things I can do without

So come on, now, I'm talking to you

So come on

Shout, shout, let it all out

These are the things I can do without

Come on, now, I'm talking to you

So come on

C'mon

Let it go